How to not forget to shampoo your hair, brush your teeth, or put on deodorant



Problem: You get out of the shower and have forgotten to wash your hair, shave your legs, or some other vital part of showering.  Or you get to work/school/wherever and realize you’ve forgotten to brush your teeth/brush your hair/shave your face/you name it.

Solution:  Using a dry erase marker, write each distinct step of your shower routine, morning sink routine, and evening sink routine on the shower wall, mirror,  etc.  If you don’t have a glass wall in your shower, a small “fog free unbreakable mirror” is an option, too.


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Yes, I was the girl that had spare deodorant in her desk drawer at work, in each car, in every gym bag, and even in the downstairs bathroom.  I had toothbrushes stashed everywhere for the same reason.  I frequently reached my destination, only to enter the building wondering, “Did I remember to brush my teeth?”  


I’d FREQUENTLY, like once a week or more, get out of the shower with my hair still dry!  My showers also ran about 15 minutes, with long stretches of me thinking, “What was I doing? What’s next?”


These two ADHD hacks changed everything.  I have to say, this is one idea I’ve never seen anywhere else.  I’ve not read or heard about in any of the books/audiobooks/or blogs I’ve frequented.  And it is a HUGE WIN for me every day.


First, figure out what you need to accomplish while you are in the shower, in the correct order.  For me it is:


Rinse hair 

Wash hair 

Condition hair 


Wash Face 

Soap up body 

Rinse everything


Write this in dry erase marker on your shower wall (if you have one), in reverse handwriting on the outside (easier said than done, I realize).  If you are using a fog-free mirror, you’ll want a fine-tipped marker, but otherwise, I feel like the chisel-tipped markers are best.



Now, I get in the shower and never lose track of where I am in the sequence of what needs to be done.  I never wonder, “What comes next.” I just go to the 

The best part about this is that my shower now taxed about 6-8 minutes…down from 15.


Then do the same thing for what you need to accomplish in the morning at the sink.  My morning list looks like this:


And my evening list looks like:


It’s really that simple.  Since it’s dry erase, just wipe it off and make changes when you add or remove tasks.  For example, I added flossing once I got all the other parts of the routine under my belt.  Easy change.


Side note: Don’t bother trying shame me about the messy shower/mirror/etc. This was a huge improvement from where I was, and now I’m even more improved than where I was at that point.  Soon I’ll be even better.  So, feel free to waste your time sending messages or comments about the mess, but it won’t land.

Book Review: How to Fail at Everything and Still Win Big…

Ugh – This is a hard review to write, so I’ll keep it short.


First of all, the book is written by the guy that writes the cartoon about cubicle life that used to be funny.  I’m purposefully not linking to his book, to his website, anything. Not even using his name here. Why? Because he has very strange political/social beliefs. Very controversial, if not downright scary.  And the people that gravitate in those circles are quite vocal and militant. I don’t wish to bring that on myself, but I did feel like it was necessary to address this book, as in my searches on Systems vs Goals, it comes up a lot.

I thought this book was going to give information about systems, etc…and while there is some detail of such, it’s mostly a weird love letter to himself.  It’s both arrogant and self-deprecating.  Like some of his most outrageous claims about  him not getting promoted because he’s a white male, literally follow him explaining how he was terrible at his job.  Massive lack of self-awareness going on.

Several times I became so angry at the book I stopped listening.  The information about his hand issue, etc…might prove useful to others going through the same medical concern, but ultimately if you are looking for a good book on systems vs goals, this is not it. Skip it, and skip giving money to someone who supports some pretty disturbing theories. I asked Audible for a refund.

Very disappointing.

“This is the Breath I’m Working On”

This isn’t a break/fix post…it’s more a rambling story.  Hang in there.


A couple of months ago, during a very, incredibly busy time of my life (school, kid stuff, work stuff), I was hit in the head by a flying cat.  Ok, stop laughing…yes this is a true story.  I have a kitchen island, and across from it, a countertop along the wall.  The cats jump back and forth (angrily, I might add), when they are about to be fed.  One of my cats, Pixel, is a very large older gentleman, who weighs about 14 pounds.  One morning at around 7am, I bent down to get the cat food cans out of the cabinet below the counter.  As I was coming up, I felt this WHAM! On the left side of my head, just above the ear.  Pixel had attempted to jump the gap between island and counter at the exact moment my head was coming up to counter height.  All his momentum, plus the thickest, hardest, part of his skull collided with the thinnest, most vulnerable part of my skull.  I staggered around for a minute, cursed a lot, and begrudgingly finished feeding my would-be assassin.  Stupid, but minor, I thought…so I went on to work.  


Around 2pm, I started to develop a wicked headache.  I attributed it to pollen (it was March, after all), and kept pushing forward.  After work, I was unloading groceries from the trunk of my car, when I pushed the hatchback downwards to close it.  The downward force was way too much momentum for me to counterbalance, and I nearly fell over.  “Whoa!  Am I drunk?” I thought.  How weird!  But…I kept going about my day. I had college papers to write.


As I took the dogs out potty, I tried to step sideways and again lost my balance completely.  Ok, yes, this is weird. Something is wrong.  As I did my school work, I couldn’t remember words.  I had trouble forming sentences.  I discussed this with my sister-in-law, who said Get thee to the ER!  So of course I…mulled it over longer and decided to schedule a Teledoc visit.  Well…here’s where things got bad.  I scheduled the visit…for the next day. By accident.  Then, after I realized my mistake, I couldn’t figure out how to change it. I struggled for an hour with their (super easy) website.  I was having trouble reading, and worse, comprehending anything.  I ended up having to call Teledoc’s customer service (who straightened out my scheduling issue).  The irony is…I work in technology. I’m extremely adept at tech stuff, and literally worked in tech support for 10 years.  I was dumbfounded by a website.  This was bad.


Teledoc was great and told me Do Not Pass Go; Do Not Collect $200. Go Straight to the ER.  So I went.

The ER people were great, though, I felt humiliated asking for a CT scan for a Cat Injury.  I’m pretty sure they were convinced I was beaten by someone, but they were nice enough to only ask once if I’m “safe at home.”  My answer “Other than the murderous cats,” was not as funny to them as it was to me.


So…anyway…long story a bit longer…I was concussed. And in a full blown migraine as a result.  Apparently that’s pretty common.  I was put on “brain rest,” and ordered into a dark room for 3-4 days.  I was to follow up with the primary care doc by then.


I had a migration the coming weekend at work; I had several college papers due; I had laundry, dishes, vacuuming…I didn’t have time for a cat-cussion.  I was told to stay off screens (no phone, no tablet, no computers).  I was told I should be back to normal in a week.


Uh…ok, that ended up being very un-true…but the important part of this story (and why I’m sharing this with you) is the ensuing meltdown, and the place I got to after.  I was/am a massive overachiever.  Before I got my adhd under control, I was a wanna-be overachiever…but now I actually am.  I was in my last semester of college, worked full time, mom full time, plus I was learning Spanish, and reading and writing daily for growth.  I was really into my routines and checklists, which were on the computer, and I couldn’t access.  My head was a mess, but I was so afraid of drifting out of my structure (which was my lifeline) that panic quickly took over.


As I sprawled on the futon in our loft, in the dark and still wearing a sleep mask, I ruminated over all the things I’m supposed to be doing. Then I’d remember I’m on brain-rest and supposed to not think.  Well, fo r all you adhd peeps who have tried meditation, and ‘clearing your mind,’ you get how hard this is, right???  


After a couple of days…I got to a point where I would start to ruminate and panic, and I’d think, “You know what? Let me just get through THIS BREATH. This one RIGHT HERE.  THIS. IS. THE. BREATH. I’M. WORKING. ON.”  and then I’d say that for the next breath. And the next.


Panic would rise up when my thoughts would drift to overdue papers, or how my boss was surely going to fire me…and I’d just come back to “Let me just get through THIS breath. THIS is the breath I’m working on.” Over and over and over. For DAYS.  


Do you know what happened?

I got through it.  It took weeks.  It was a slow, painful recovery. I had linger effects for months.  But it took almost 2 full weeks of brain rest (and near-total darkness) before I got through the migraines.  I had to go to a neurologist (which ended up being a blessing…), and what’s more, I learned the power of “this is the breath I’m working on.”


When I start to panic, fret, or ruminate, I can instantly bring myself back into calm now.  After nearly two weeks of saying that mantra all day, it is one of the most centering tools I have in my tool box.  I can’t adequately explain the power of it to you, but feel free to try it yourself and report back.


I think for me, it’s similar to another mantra I heard about (“Right now, this is how it is.”)  I think both really “give it up” to the fact that we are where we are…and acceptance just might be our only option.  I think mine also gives me focus, and internal focus of something I can do at that moment.  So it’s helpful for me in that way.


Anyway, long story, short: breathe.

Book Review: The Queen Of Distraction…

Today I want to briefly talk to you about a book that helped me start to revisit the impact ADHD was having in my life.  Even though I was diagnosed in my early  thirties, initially I didn’t believe the diagnosis, much less take it seriously.  This book really shifted my perspective: The Queen of Distraction: How Women with ADHD Can Conquer Chaos, Find Focus, and Get More Done, by Terry Matlen, MSW.  

I listened to it quite a while ago (Aug 2018), and I’m just now getting around to reviewing it (hahaha, irony…), but so much still sticks with me every day.  Specifically, the details about emotion regulation, hyper sensitivity, and hormones.  THIS is the book that helped me realize I’m not crazy or defective, and suggested ideas for planning around the way my biology wants to work.  Of the three specifics I mentioned, the difference in how ADHD women (and girls) experience emotion was so freaking liberating to me…that alone is worth the price of the book.  Seriously. I am forever changed by this knowledge, and frankly, reassurance.  

I’d like to also share that this book is very accessible, even (and especially) if you aren’t an academic.  It’s an easy read (or, in my case, listen), and the author really brings the technical into the practical.  It’s certainly a great book that came into my life at the perfect time, and I owe it (and Ms. Matlen) a huge debt of gratitude.


Duplicates Galore!




You realize you need something, go to find it, get sidetracked looking for whatever it was, then an hour later find yourself back in the original room and realize you still have to go find whatever it was.



Whenever feasible, keep duplicates of things everywhere you are.


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This is a tough one, and it doesn’t apply to everything, of course.  I’ll tell you what it works well for (for me).  


Let’s say I’m about to read something on my phone. I realize I need my reading glasses.  I get up, walk over to where I think they are, and as I’m heading there, my son says, “Oh hey, what’s for dinner?”  I detour to the fridge, gaze into it and say, “How about XYZ?” He says sure, then I realize the milk has expired.  I pour it out, put it into the over-flowing recycling bin, which I decide needs to be taken out RIGHT THEN.  As I’m carrying the recycling bin through the garage, I see the tire is getting flat again on the car, so I grab my phone to put a note to take the car to the shop…which I can’t read because I still haven’t gotten my glasses from my purse.  


My solution to this was: buy multiple pairs of reading glasses.  They are literally $10 at Wally World, for non-rx versions.  But also I wanted blue-light blocking, which I ordered on Zenni Optical, but those I did this slowly over a couple of months (as budget allowed). Now I have a pair at work on my desk, at home on my desk (home office), in my purse, and on my nightstand.


I did the same thing with lotion, Chapstick, tissues, pens (I have a certain type of pen I like), highlighters, Mio, sugar substitute, etc, etc.  For example, I actually really like the EOS lip balm, so every grocery trip for  several months, I added one to my cart. They are about $3-4 for one “ball.”  Which isn’t a huge amount, but my budget can’t handle buying 10 at once.  Now I have one on my nightstand, one in the kitchen drawer, one in my purse, one in each car, one on each desk (home and work), and a couple in storage for back up.  


Here’s a trick I learned from “I Always Want to Be Where I’m Not,” along the same lines:  Have trash cans EVERYWHERE.  In some rooms I have two or three trashcans, but every room has at least one.  I’m way more likely to throw something away when there is a trashcan in reach, than if not.  And then trash doesn’t pile up all over my house.  In my weekly cleaning routine, emptying the trash can(s) for each room is part of the schedule.


Letter to a friend on 10 second breathing

I have been a bit slack about posting. Lots of irons in the fire here, and unfortunately this blog gets back-burnered when time is short.  Recently, I wrote to a friend about the reason she should be taking 2 minutes to breathe for 10 seconds when she is stressed and really daily whether or not she is stressed.


I’m posting the email here because I think it’s good info, and a pretty quick summary, even if it’s kinda rambling.


Sorry for the late email! Long day!

Here’s what I want to share:
There is a very long nerve that runs from your brain stem/limbic area of the brain to your heart.  Consider it a dedicated circuit between the brain and the heart.  The role of this nerve is to control the heart if you are in mortal danger.  It pretty much shuts down your extraneous (at that moment) systems (such as digestion) and makes your heart pump fast and VERY CONSISTENTLY.

Normally your heart beats vary in length and frequency.  This is known as Heart Rate Variability.  High HRV or Low HRV can actually be a great measure of your health.  Lots and lots written about it.  When your HR is very variable, that means that your parasympathetic is in control.  This is the “autopilot” you want to be flying the plane.  It means you are calm, relaxed, and able to easily function in the pre-frontal cortex area of your brain.

If your HRV is very low (you have a very consistent heart rate), it actually means you are in a state of arousal, you are ready to fight, flee, or freeze.  Your digestion is an after thought, and crucially, you aren’t able to use areas of your Pre-Frontal Cortex.  This part of the brain (responsible for decision making and executive function) “costs” a lot to use. It eats up glucose very fast, and gets exhausted quick…also, it may make you pause while you consider the best course of action to run from the lion, or try to talk it out of eating you. By then it would be too late, so when in a state of arousal, the PFC is actually shut off.  Since the carpool being backed up, an urgent conference call, and spilled coffee…won’t actually eat you…the problem is that our PFC is shut off precisely when we need it the most for modern life.

How do you get it back?
One method is to engage the parasympathetic nervous system, force the vagus nerve to tell the heart to slow down, and allow cortisol levels to drop.  This is called “vagal toning” and there are a LOT of woo-woo kinds of things (‘hippie-dippie’) out there about this.  However, there is a lot of science behind it in actual psychology research journals.  Two common methods BACKED BY RESEARCH are slowing your breathing down to 4-6 breaths per minute for AT LEAST 90 seconds, or humming for at least 90 seconds.

Since humming can draw attention to yourself, and slowing your breathing can be done relatively unnoticed, this is my go-to. However, if you are alone in your car, or are braver than I, feel free to hum! 🙂  Feel like adding power? Hum WHILE doing 10 second breathing.

You want to get down to 4 to 6 breaths PER minute.  That means, one full breath every 10 seconds…or 5 seconds in, 5 seconds out.

Why greater than 90 seconds?  Because that’s how long it takes for a pump of cortisol to burn out in your body.  If you can break the cortisol release cycle (I’m stressed – cortisol is released, now I’m stressed AND anxious, and my body is on edge, omg why am I shaking, great a headache! How can I present now!?!?! OMG more cortisol just was released…thanks a lot!), Then you give yourself a BIG LEG UP.

It might not cure all the things that stressed you out, but it keeps you from making it worse, by then worrying “Is this a heart attack? is this a panic attack? My stomach is in knots, maybe it’s stomach cancer?”

Is that just me? Oops?

So…here’s some other super cool vagus nerve info. You are less likely to have a heart attack if you have high HRV.  Also, if you have a heart attack and then practice 10+ second breathing every day, working up to 20 mins, you recover faster, and have less of a chance of a second heart attack.

What’s more, you should do 10 second breathing EVERY DAY. Whether you are stressed or not.

Even if you only do it once a day, for two minutes…it impacts your body in amazing ways.

When I’m doing it, I watch the second hand and I think “THIS is the breath that I’m working on…”
then..”Now…THIS is the breath that I’m working on.”  And so on.

It’s very grounding and keeps me fully present.  I can do it in meetings, and sometimes I do.  I can do it in the car…But it’s currently in my “Lunch routine.”  I eat, then do 3 mins (I’m working up to 5 or 10), then I might do a small meditation or light reading for 2 mins.  Notice, the 10 second breathing is it’s OWN THING.  I consider myself in HRV training, and meditation is necessary and important, but different and I keep them separate.

Once I get to 10 mins of 10 second breathing, I might try to make it 12 second breathing (5 breaths/minute).

Thanks for reading this far if you actually have! Sorry to ramble.  It sounds complicated, and invasive in life, but I’m telling you it’s not. And you can work it into anything. Like maybe that’s your stoplight thing. Maybe during potty breaks (though you’ll have to tell me how humming in public toilets goes over…I feel like that would make great Twitter humor). It doesn’t matter. The more you do it, the better, but once a day for 2 mins is super impactful.  When I started I did it at least 4 times a day (breakfast, snack, lunch, dinner – I figured if I tied it to food, I wouldn’t miss it 🙂 ).

ok – enough rambling! Hope that helps!

Time wasting and Opportunity Cost



You continually put off things that you really need to do in favor of what you feel like doing right now



1 – Recognize when you are choosing.

2 – Determine all the options you are choosing amongst.

3 – “Play the tape forward,” and imagine (vividly) living with the consequences of doing

4  Recognize the opportunity cost  of not doing each option.  If you choose 1, you can’t do any of the others.  What are you giving up?


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So, let’s talk about opportunity cost, and what it means for an ADHD person.


Wikipedia defines Opportunity Cost like this:


“…the opportunity cost, or alternative cost, of making a particular choice is the value of the most valuable choice out of those that were not taken. In other words, opportunity that will require sacrifices.” (Link.)


Usually this in reference to financial decisions, for example, if you invest in stock XYZ, you AREN’T investing that same money in ABC…which means whatever benefit you could have had from ABC stock gains is lost to you. But can apply this concept to any “scare resource.”  Guess what is a scare resource for ADHD people (and really all people these days)? Time.  Time is your scarce resource. (Even if you are unemployed and live in your parent’s basement).  Start thinking about the opportunity cost of your time investments.


For example: If you have a paper due Friday, you have laundry, dishes, and vacuuming to do, grocery shopping, and you need to visit your family before they disown you.  If it will take you 10 hours to write the paper, which can only be done after work, you have 2 hours each night needed to write the paper.  Assuming you get home at 6pm and are in bed by 10pm, your capacity each night is 4 hours.  If, Monday night you think, “Oh I have ‘Plenty of Time’ to work on the paper…I can go see Mom & Dad!”  That takes all four hours because they live 30 mins away, you stay for dinner, and we all know your mom can talk…

Now you have 16 hours of capacity left (over 4 nights).  When weighing the decision to go see Mom & Dad versus working on the paper you must consider the opportunity cost of choosing time with Mom & Dad over working on the paper.  There isn’t a right or wrong answer here.  Maybe tomorrow Mom & Dad are in a terrible wreck…you will be happy you invested those 4 hours with them and not on a paper no one will ever remember.  The key is, you should CHOOSE WITH AWARENESS of the opportunity cost.


Now it’s Tuesday night, and you have to cook dinner, do the dishes, and vacuum as the dust bunnies and pile of dirty dishes in the sink are out of control.  You have chosen cleaning over paper.  The opportunity cost is that now you are seriously diminishing you’re a) Ability to do quality work on this paper and B) Quality of life when you finally sit down to work on the paper.  You will be a stress puppy because you left it to the last minute and cut every corner you can. You and I both know this.



Dr. Wes Crenshaw talks about this in his book “I Always Want to Be Where I’m Not,” which, btw, I love the title of this book. I can so relate to this.  I’ll review the book in a later blog, but for now, let’s just talk about what he calls “Playing the Tape Forward.”

In order to see the opportunity cost of anything, you must be able to play the tape forward. This is, according to Dr. Crenshaw, the ability to imagine the future consequences of doing, or not doing, any specific action.  ADHD peeps, notoriously impulsive, have major issues with this!  No surprise there.  However, if you can’t see the potential outcome of doing or not doing anything, you will never be able to weigh the opportunity cost.


So, step one is RECOGNIZE WHEN YOU ARE ABOUT TO MAKE A DECISION!!!  This is harder than you think.  And it goes to (yet another blog post to come) Microchoices.  These are the teeny, tiny, infinitesimally small choices we make all day that add up to the totality of our lives.  Maybe there’s a better word, or someone has already coined that term for something else…but this is how I define them in my life. And recognizing when I’m making a microchoice is CRUCIAL to this entire process.


Once you start to notice where you make a choice, be it big or small, you can identify the alternatives available in the choice.  Let’s say you recognize that when you come home from work every day, you have grand plans of all the things you want to tackle before bed.  Instead, once again, you find yourself zoning out in front of the tv until it’s long past bedtime.  When is the moment of choice?  When you plop down on the couch and pick up the remote.  Tomorrow (cause it’s too late today), when you are about to plop on the couch, you will need to stop and consider your other options.  Yes, I know you will FEEL like “relaxing” for just a minute.  You are choosing none-the-less.  And this is the perfect opportunity to make choices that will change the ease of your life.


So it’s tomorrow, and you are heading towards the couch. You think, “This is just what that blog was talking about.”  What are your alternatives?  You could, instead of plopping on the couch, quickly go change into your running shoes and get out the door before you have a chance to change your mind.  Or, you could work on that Business Plan for the new business you dream about starting.  Or you could do the pile of dishes in the sink, which will make your spouse supremely happy, and result in a more harmonious marriage.  It doesn’t matter what your options are, you need to play the tape forward for each one.  Then you need to understand that when you choose one, all the others are off the table to you.  You don’t get the harmonious marriage and get to sit on the couch night after night.  That’s not the way the world works.  Your biz won’t ever take off if you know more about Game of Thrones than your new venture.  You will probably end up with a heart attack at 55 because you “felt” more like “relaxing” than putting all that effort into running.  I’m not being mean; I’m being realistic.  And you need to be, too.


Everything you choose shuts off ALL THE OTHER OPTIONS.  


I used to think, erroneously, that I’d “make up for it later.”  Do you do that?  Ok, well, if I spend “just a minute” checking Facebook, I’ll “work faster” on that paper later, and just get it done in less time.  Or I’d somehow clean faster, or drive faster.


That’s called “magical thinking” and is not how reality works.


When I chose to scroll through Facebook, I’m giving up EVERYTHING ELSE I want to accomplish.  That’s my opportunity cost.  EVERYTHING ELSE.  Do I still scroll through Facebook? Yes, sure.  But, for very small spurts of time now, as I’m keenly aware of what I’m sacrificing.  When I say yes to a meeting request, what can’t I do because I’ll be in that meeting? 


Opportunity cost is everywhere.   Not just finances and not just time management.  If I give my attention to this person at the party for 3 straight hours, I’ve missed out on meeting many other people.  If I wear this outfit today, I can’t wear it tomorrow to that special dinner because you and I both know I’ll never finish the laundry by then.


…And so on!


What are some opportunity cost scenarios you’ve experienced in your daily life?

Not just for yogis: Meditation as an ADHD intervention



You have an incredibly short attention span, especially when things are boring.  You are easily distracted by random internal or external things, and it is virtually impossible to get you back on track once your thought train has derailed.




Really, really, really give meditation a try.  The neuroscience behind why this works is extremely compelling.


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In full disclosure, I didn’t start meditating to relieve ADHD symptoms.  I started at the suggestion of my therapist to address the crippling anxiety I was having about practically everything in my life.  


Meditation is extremely difficult for people with ADHD. Let me not sugar coat this at all: It’s nearly impossible.  Which is kinda why you really need to do it.


For me, the only thing that worked to get my butt to sit down and try meditation was an app called Headspace for the Iphone (I’m sure there is an android version, too…).  Headspace worked for me because of their tracking of my “Run Streak” (consecutive days of meditating), and how extremely guided it is in the basic and many other packs. 

I had over 380 days in the previous runstreak!


There are really great animations to explain the new concepts, and basically “normalize” something that seems pretty hippie-dippy to a lot of us linear thinkers.


Some of the research I found discussed the brain changes that are visible on fMRI after only 10 hours of meditation.  I’ll have to look it back up, but basically the areas of the brain that show neuroplasticity after meditation are the areas of the brain where ADHD peeps could use a little more help.  Several books and articles on ADHD started tying all the threads together for me, and explained that you don’t meditate to clear your mind, you meditate to PRACTICE clearing your mind.  That’s a very subtle but massive distinction.  


What that means is, you WANT your mind to drift, so you exercise the “muscle” of redirecting your focus.  As frustrating as that is when it happens, the skill you are building is accepting that our minds drift, and then redirecting yourself back to your focus when they do.  As an ADHD perfectionist, when my mind would go off down a rabbit hole, I’d beat myself up once I realized I was off-task, and had no idea where I was on the task I should have been working on. Sometimes I would literally sit in my office at work and cry.  I told myself how stupid I was, how lazy, etc., etc.  The battle then became to NOT lose focus (which is pretty impossible), instead of refocusing back to where I was when I lost focus.  


Another great book that can help you embrace this “alternative” intervention for focusing is “10% Happier: How I Tamed the Voice in My Head, Reduced Stress Without Losing My Edge, and Found Self-Help That Actually Works–A True Story” by Dan Harris.  When I read his book, I had already been meditating for over a year and a half.  Unlike Mr. Harris, though, my meditation sessions are very short, and sprinkled throughout the day.  Maybe someday I’ll get to the point where I can devote 1 hour to meditating, but currently I need that time for other things.  But this book really helped mainstream and normalize meditation for me.  I felt, honestly, a bit embarrassed mentioning it at all when discussing my ADHD interventions.  Also, since I originally started this to address the anxiety, for a long time I didn’t see the impact on my focus.


The improvement in focus was super subtle.  In fact, I can’t even tell you when I started to notice things improving.  Once, in a meeting, when I found myself looking out the window and day dreaming, I realized I was off focus, brought my attention first to my breathing for two or three breaths, then I was able to resume focus on the speaker.  When I am overwhelmed it’s extremely easy for me to lose focus.  I will bring my attention to my breathing (literally focusing on my stomach expanding and contracting with each breath), and then go back to the thing I should be focusing on.  And sometimes I have to do this six times.  Welcome to ADHD.  What’s new is that I don’t hate myself for it, or tell myself how flawed I am. I tell myself I’m grateful for the opportunity to exercise my re-focusing muscles.  And in that way, I’m significantly more than 10% happier.

Grocery Pickup or Delivery




Grocery shopping takes 3-4 hours, you are overwhelmed with choices and making decisions on the fly in the supermarket, and you always end up blowing your budget because you can’t stick to the list (which, incidentally, you probably left on the counter at home, anyway…).



Sign up for Grocery Pick up OR Delivery IMMEDIATELY.  Seriously. Do it now. I’ll wait…


Full story:


I didn’t realize how horrible grocery shopping is for an adhd person until I took it off my plate.  There are so many pitfalls for us.  First of all, It’s a stimulation nightmare. Sights, sounds, smells, many many people, too many decisions to count.  I THOUGHT I enjoyed shopping. I THOUGHT I enjoyed “finding the best deal.”  I really believed I needed to look at each piece of produce to determine the perfect one.  And to calculate the price per ounce of this brand versus that.  Or, look at all the ingredients to make sure I wasn’t getting dosed with sugar.  What’s worse: I thought this was a good use of my time.


I was wrong.


In the last two semesters of finishing my degree this spring, I started to fully understand the concept of opportunity cost when it comes to time.  I’ll need to go into more detail about this later, perhaps, but the basic concept is (and thank you to Algorithms to Live By for really getting this point to hit home for me), if I decide to spend my time doing X, I am thereby giving up all the other options.  For a long time I truly believed that if I chose to do X, I could still do ALL the other things, I just would have to do them quicker.  I erroneously thought I’d somehow be able to read or write faster than all historical proof otherwise.  Or vacuum. Or whatever.  Once I finally got that piece of the puzzle (that I was unrealistic!), and I really came to understand that by CHOOSING to do X, I’m GIVING UP everything else…I started to DEFEND my time much more militantly.  Actually, what happened was, I started to get very very angry at everyone.  When I was asked to drive someone 40 minutes out of my way on their whim, I’d quickly calculate all the butterfly effect impacts elsewhere in my life.  I’d start to get very angry.  “You want me to fail my class?!?!?” Would race through my mind.  Here’s how that played out:  

If I take you where you are requesting, that’s 40 mins down, 40 mins back.  I won’t get home until 8pm, and I still have to make and eat dinner.  By the time I do that and clean up, it’ll be 9pm, and then I have to start winding down for bed by 10pm.  Or I could stay up late doing homework.  But that would mean I oversleep the next morning.  Then I’d start the day behind, which really impacts the whole rest of my day, setting me up for failure tomorrow.  The paper is due tomorrow, so if I don’t get some work today, then I won’t get it finished and submitted tomorrow, but also, I have these six other things tomorrow, so I won’t be able to do much work tomorrow.  I have to work on this tonight or otherwise I’ll not get the assignment in at all, and then I’ll fail the class since this is like 40% of the grade. Clearly this person wants me to fail to ask me to do this thing! Why do they hate me???


So, yeah.  The better I got at “enforcing my boundaries” the less I ventured into “Why do they hate me???” Territory.  I still struggle with saying no to other people, but also, to myself.  Grocery shopping is one of those things.


I had seen the ads for grocery delivery services like Shipt or Instacart.  My parents used Harris Teeters Express Lane for over year.  I still refused to get on the train.  For some reason I believed going up and down every aisle, carefully considering every purchase was necessary.  I reasoned I would waste money if I couldn’t carefully consider all the alternatives of price and weight.


Then the reality of opportunity cost started to click.  And I started observing.  I’d spend 3-4 hours every Saturday on grocery shopping.  I’d arrive at the store with my Iphone and my shopping list in the Paprika app.  I’d go through every aisle, carefully considering all the alternatives, making the cheapest decision, unless it was a brand or style my picky son demanded.  I’d end up realizing I “probably” was out of this or that, and oh! This or that looked good/interesting/is on sale.


I never came in under budget.  And, I never had 3-4 hours to spare.  With juggling 3 classes each of the last two semesters, plus full-time employment, constantly being on-call, international travel, and raising a teen-ager…3-4 hours of weekend time is freaking gold.  I was squandering it…AND my money.


I looked at Shipt and Instacart, but was very annoyed with the fact that this products aren’t everything availabe in the store.  Also, that the prices differ from what is in the store.  I also found the pricing model annoying/confusing, and the reviews were sketchy.  Finally, the feedback from the professional shoppers who have worked there was not admirable.  I decided, ultimately, on Walmart Grocery Pickup.  I have a lot of issues with Walmart as a company, but I decided to bite the bullet and put my politics aside in favor of getting through the semester with some sanity.  Here’s how that played out:


Friday night, with my Paprika app open, and the walmart grocery website up, I built my cart (and added most things to my favorites). I checked out and selected pick up for Saturday at  3pm. Total time: 17 minutes.



Left house at 3pm

Arrived 3:07 pm

Car packed and on my way at 3:13pm

Home by 3:20pm. Car unloaded and groceries away by 3:35pm

Back to working on Homework at 3:40pm




I just got back (most of the time) nearly 3 hours of golden productive time.  No extra fees, and they don’t let you tip the associates that load your car.  Plus, it’s the same price in the store or online.  


Then…it got better.  Walmart started offering DELIVERY at my local Walmart.  This was, unfortunately, after my classes were over, but I’m still using it.  It’s a 7.95 delivery fee, and you tip the delivery person, but I’m extremely ok with this.  



The concept of opportunity cost is really coming up everywhere in my life these days, and I hope to write more about it in the future.  I think there are many more ways I should be applying it, honestly.  

Book Review – Checklist Manifesto by Atul Gawande

I just finished the book Checklist Manifesto by Atul Gawande, and wanted to capture my thoughts on it while they were fresh in my mind.


This book is written by a surgeon, so it is very heavy in the medical examples.  However, a good deal of information is provided on the other well-known use-case for checklists: aviation.  The history of how checklists came about was extremely fascinating, and the implications of how they avert disaster even today is really encouraging.


I was incredibly surprised that adoption of surgical checklists has only happened extremely recently.  It seems like a bit of a no-brainer to me, now, to have checklists in surgery.  After listening to the aubible version of the book, I’m looking for places in my job where checklists would save my butt.  


The information on types of checklists, and what checklists should contain was extremely eye opening, as well.  I started using checklists about 18 months ago, (well before listening to this book), and never knew there were two types of checklists.  The do-confirm checklist is more of a safety-net, whereas the read-do checklist is more instructions to be followed.  When I implemented checklists at first, they were very much “read-do” lists.  The lists in my shower, on my bathroom mirror, and what eventually became all the lists in my routines in B24.  I would stand in the shower, look at the list, read the item, do the item, look back at the list, read the next item, do the next item…and so on.  After 18 months or so, I NOW have the routine, for the most part.  Yes…it took 18 months for me to get into a routine that I wouldn’t accidentally miss steps because I’m distracted.  Welcome to ADHD brain.


In fact, some parts of some of my checklists are a mix of the types.  For example, in my morning routine, when I’m extremely sleepy during the first part of the list (before coffee kicks in), I “read-do.”  The second half – which tends to be more rapid as the time to leave approaches, I usually check off after I’ve arrived at my destination. 


Without getting into too much detail, as I want to devote an entire post to the checklist and how it’s improved my life, here is a picture of what I mean:




First part of morning routine.
Rest of the Morning Routine










The point where I switch from Read-Do to Do-Confirm is about step 32 or 33 most days, or 29 or 30 most days.  Depending on how well the coffee does its job!

I really enjoyed the book, even though I didn’t feel like I learned much startlingly new information.  The information I did learn pushed me to look at checklists for my job in a new light, however.  I was very limited in my thinking about checklists (only I need them, this is just to fix my ADHD, etc.), but the reality is, who doesn’t need checklists?  Because I work in Tech, and a lot of what I do is centered around production data, and an additional part of my job is growing the people under me to handle crises of such, checklists would actually be a huge benefit in my job.  This book made me see that.  And that alone is worth the price of the audio book!